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Under no circumstances encounter emptiness.            <\/p>\n\n<p>And do you know what&#8217;s so gross? <strong>Almost every man has exactly this wound inside him.<\/strong> But nobody talks about it.<br\/>We think it&#8217;s &#8220;normal&#8221;, call it &#8220;I&#8217;m just like this&#8221; &#8211; and don&#8217;t realize that we&#8217;ve been living remote-controlled for a long time.<\/p>\n\n<p>The truth is uncomfortable: we are not running <em>anywhere<\/em>. We are <em>running away<\/em>. From ourselves. From the little boy inside us who has never been seen. Healing does not begin with courage, but with honesty. With the sentence:     <br\/><strong>&#8220;Yes, I carry a father wound.&#8221;<\/strong><\/p>\n\n<p>And only then does something begin that makes every step worthwhile: freedom. Presence. Masculinity on a new level.  <\/p>\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n<p>Listen to the new podcast episode:<\/p>\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-rich is-provider-spotify wp-block-embed-spotify wp-embed-aspect-21-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe title=\"Spotify Embed: #051 Innere Leere und Identit\u00e4tsunsicherheit\" style=\"border-radius: 12px\" width=\"100%\" height=\"152\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen allow=\"autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; fullscreen; picture-in-picture\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/embed\/episode\/3BLgWlBzHogSiqqIjsiyDj?utm_source=oembed\"><\/iframe>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n<p><\/p>\n\n<p>And with Apple Podcasts:<\/p>\n\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/podcasts.apple.com\/us\/podcast\/051-innere-leere-und-identit%C3%A4tsunsicherheit\/id1761337825?i=1000739471885\">https:\/\/podcasts.apple.com\/us\/podcast\/051-innere-leere-und-identit%C3%A4tsunsicherheit\/id1761337825?i=1000739471885<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>From the inner emptiness. 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